was drunk the day before with her.
sloppy drunk - all sense of the word.
she took some that i bought from the other one.
one dollar.
then she drank it with someone else.
i was glad.
same amount in my mug last night as the day before.
by myself.
i was happy.
smiling in my room by myself.
i wanted a cigarette and smiled at the ones i passed
on the stairwell.
called her from outside.
she was more drunk than the day before.
i wasnt. i felt happy and content.
but i really wanted to see him.
hardly seen him all weekend.
i had to leave her and her someone else.
only because i dont love them like i love him.
i finally saw him out my window, smoking.
i ran out to get him. and then he came up.
then we made each other drink.
i was barely off the ground.
then we took our clothes off.
i finally got to feel him on top of me again.
seemed like it had been so long.
we werent drunk.
and we had sex.
i like drinking with him much better than her.