I know itıs you
You got in your car
Copper rain swallowing your
Your starving white mask is
Donıt you feel ridiculous for being here?
I know if I let him in
My skeletal tact has obliterated me.
I open the door and look but I donıt
Tempted and assaulted by the
He smiles at me like
Sitting inside me and underneath
As I sat cross-legged in a sexy dress
A rowdy young boy who knew he had something
Men have come to me with their circuses
Iıve slept on coastal beaches,
Was I really the purest branch of emotion in you?
You were gone this whole time-
Mutilating me with the anchor of your absence.
I let him in,
Iım shamefully chilled just by his luxury.
Iım exposed. That makes me erratic.
You ships dazzling dancers into my soul
Then youıll get back in your junky car
You know youıve settled. You idiot
Go right ahead and leave me stuckby A.E. Jenks
Behind my door
Standing like Cairo
with a lean black panther
shadow.
coming for me no matter how
far you had to go.
brain cells
like it did when
I first kissed you in a new place
I canıt remember,
Only that it was new
and Iıve never gone back.
waiting for the lining of my face
to enhance the dullness of your earth.
Donıt you know that
the colors are under the lining now?
Iıll be able to deduct passion again.
I know he can touch me like heıs
slept next to me for fifty years.
I can pretend Iım not home.
The stakes follow me, laughing vigorously.
let him in.
The horrible feeling is back.
I'm ejected from my own endurance.
absence of worry in his face.
he was on the plane
when I flew to other countries
for the opening nights of operas,
my companionıs hand as he held it
Forbidding the tightness of certainty
in front of royal pianos in candle-lit rooms
he thinks he was the flightiness of the melody
so feverish and good that heıd never tell anyone
too much about it.
of wealth and dressed up words.
Waking to fruit and wine
as you were in Australia and China
kissing pretty girls with a force
way less than the one
you kiss me with, right?
Why are you sure that it was the thread
of that one kiss you sewed up in me
that kept you with me all this time-
Invigorating the corners of my Xanadu smile?
Craving to mimic the sly frown
used on me by an old adversary
So I can seem unwilling.
The taste of French wine on his tongue
His ivory colored shirt showing
part of his scented chest.
Crowding me with all the times I let you interfere.
Iıve worn this subdued look before on tarnished
streets.
I know Iım gonna let you do it again-
Burnish my life with that tough harmony
That no one else could ever match.
and take the hazy brick streets back
to your world of inaccurate senses
and sleepy television afternoons.
How could you be okay with that?
in the shapelessly long way that I love you
And finish suffocating for it
until youıre dead.